Musical Interlude.

LINKIN PARk

"Somewhere I Belong"

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong.

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Sunday: Hobbies, the day before noon, and the flu.

Sunday

I had another epiphany. Well it wasn't entirely an an epiphany I would say (cause I've known it all along) but I've come to yet another conclusion! I really needed a hobby. I had already set my eyes on sewing (again) and today I bought the remaining supplies to begin making this. I also ended up with this. So all in all I have my new hobby started, at least a little bit. Couple trips for zippers, and other miscellaneous things, and I'll be able to finish the second project as well! I will be using the fabric I mentioned a couple posts back for both projects, actually. Here is a direct link to both of the pattern books I mentioned earlier as well (the source of many ideas for my new hobby.) Lotta Jansdotter's Simple Sewing and Amy Butler's In Stitches.

The clutch (my first project) is on page 131 of "In Stitches". I'm hoping this will help with the down time I tend to have on Sunday's and other random days. Just something to focus my energy on. :)


The Day before noon. It's been a couple days since I've been up before noon. This whole week being sick has worn me out, and I barely did anything. But everyday I wasn't up early, I felt lazy and unproductive. (Which is what I was being). So I've made it a little goal to get better at not sleeping away my day and experiencing the day before noon.

As for my flu. It's pretty much gone. I'm left with a cough, which, is way better than most everything I had this week. I'm alive, that's what counts.

Saturday night, Nathan and I helped out at a Sickle Cell Anemia Benefit downtown. We helped my boss, and his partner (for the event), they're photographers. We brought along with us a printer. It prints instantly from the camera to the printer. Which impressed guests who were use to waiting in the mail for their photograph. As an added bonus: the photographs are better than normal printed photos. After 2 hours, however, even I became a little weary of putting photographs in sleeves. All in all it was fun and I was glad to do it.


The weather has been especially nice lately. I was able to enjoy it this weekend, even if it was just walking to my car, I walked just a little slower to enjoy the breeze, and sunshine.

Sunday.

Well I spent the majority of today with fever. I haven't had one of those for along time. It caused a pretty serious headache all day too. So I spent my Sunday watching movies with Nathan and trying to cope with it. I don't mind a low-key Sunday, actually I prefer it. Less to do is better.

The photoshoot went very well on Saturday! It was a lot of fun! We drove around town looking for interesting places. My favourite time was as the sun went down, and the sky was orange. It made for some interesting exposures. My model, Corina(my best friend), was really patient with me as I figured out the camera (that I borrowed), looked for creative inspiration and as I asked her to sit in trees. Heh, it was worth it.

I had a crash course in manual mode. I've never actually used a digital SLR. Yeah I've played around with them but never learned the manual menus. I do however have a lot of experience with film cameras, so once I figured out how to translate what I knew about film, to digital, it made the whole day a lot easier. Next photoshoot I do, I hope to use more F stops, rather than just shutterspeeds (I made it less complicated by being on manual mode, with a set f-stop and flipping through the shutterspeeds). Ah, it was so refreshing to be photographing again!

Day 37: 1AM, again!

Is it really one in the morning? Another night in a row? Wow. No wonder I'm tired.


Latest inspirations:

Photography; I haven't been doing this at all lately. This past weekend, however, I took the opportunity to take as many photos as I could, being that a mutual friend is heading to France tomorrow (for 2 years).

I have a Lomography (www.Lomography.com) "Fish Eye" camera that I have been dying to use, and develop film from. (I probably paid way too much for this film/novelty camera but oh well.) So I finished off a roll and a half, and I cannot wait to develop it. Here's a description of this nove cam:

"The world’s only 35mm camera with a built-in fisheye lens! It sees a sweeping 170-degree view – compacting everything around you into a compact circular image. Get right up to your subject’s nose for slamming distortion effects. Huge depth of field renders both the foreground and background in complete focus. Its premium glass lens offers bright colors and knockout contrast. Rocks a built-in electronic flash for use day or night. Uses normal 35mm film that can be processed anywhere." -www.Lomography.com

You can easily get one at Urban Oufitters, or at Lomography's website. But beware camera aficionados, the website offers many a cool tool.


Speaking of cool tools. I have discovered the Canon 5D. A little late, I know, but I am still rather impressed by this FULL FRAME camera. At $1500 (on Ebay, $2,000 elsewhere) you can own this well rated machine.

I think I am going to stick to the little gun of my price range. The Rebel Xti. It's about all I need for my purposes, and a huge step from the point-and-shoots that I am accustomed too. Luckily I'll be taking one out this Saturday for a photoshoot.

Side note: A new Rebel is in town. The Rebel XSi is 12.2 megapixel (a small jump from the Xti's 10 megapixels), digital SLR. If anyone would like to donate one to me, I prefer the black.... Otherwise I will stick to saving. For more on Canon's newest Rebel click here.



Other Inspirations:

Fabric; While at a fabric store the other day, I fell across a 99 cent roll of pink polka dot material. I than bought 10 yards of it and called it a day. It's a light weight fabric, but very fun. I haven't decided what to do with it yet, but it's still here, being inspiring.

Pattern books; Since picking up a book in San Francisco, two trips ago, I have picked up one more. These books have neat photographs with directions on simple to difficult sewing projects. Good thing I have that 10 yards. For more hobby books please visit the publisher of my two books, here.

Graphic Design//Photoshop//CMYK; I'm trying to fill my life with inspirational design and work that I admire. It's not hard to find awesome works of digital art, but remembering and learning from is a whole 'nother story. As I enter the world of fashion, hair and graphic design I'm starting to cut, save, notice design around me. It's paying off creatively.


Well that does it, folks. Been to Barnes & Noble lately?

Day 36: No caption.

I'm tired.