Habakkuk 3:2

Habakkuk 3:2

LORD, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, O LORD. Renew them in our day, in our time make them known; in wrath remember mercy.

Exhaustion.

According to http://en.wiktionary.org/, exhaustion can be define as "The point of complete depletion; used up; Supreme tiredness; having exhausted energy".

That is how I feel. It's not because I'm "so busy" that I don't get a second to think, it's more that I have too much time. It's not because of piling work or troublesome relationships (thankfully). But because I lack something to do.

It's because I can't seem to slow down. My mind is always wandering, and my heart beat is constantly running on fast. I've been told often that I don't know how to calm down. Right now I'm feeling it.

It's when you try to relax and the moment is perfect, but you're uncomfortable and your heart races.

My Sunday: Chinese fortune cookie

My Sunday: Chinese fortune cookie

"Today It's up to you to create the peacefulness you long for."

Sometimes I wonder if He's trying to speak to me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm even listening. It's blunt and it's obvious. It's easier to wallow in yourself, wallow in your doubt and drown in your pain.

My sister once shared with me that "happiness is a choice". But what happens when everyday you choose to be happy but the pain and frustration you feel still doesn't go away? I personally feel like a failure. It's much easier for me to comfort others than myself. I am the definition of "take your own advice".

Don't let your limitations overshadow your talents.

I find it quite amusing when I am reminded to keep my eyes "on the prize" by fortunes and advice. I guess it's the simple things that trigger ideas and remind you to sit down and relax, life is good, it just has it's ups and downs. Just like a swing (my favourite life analogy).